3 weeks down, 5 days to go

I don't remember the last time I was so excited to see a person. Spent three hours out by the pool in the blistering sun, soaking up the rays and reading a good book... and every once in awhile, I would pause and remember that in less than a week, he'll be back. It makes me smile every time. I'm so excited, like a little kid on Christmas Eve. Some people may roll their eyes and say, "corny." I love it. Five years ago, I promised myself that I would make attempts to numb myself from emotions - I was so messed up from having the highest highs ripped out from under me and ending up in the lowest lows.... the rollercoaster was awful.

The numbing.... it worked. For about 4 years. I broke off relationships that previously would've devastated me. I divorced a guy without blinking an eye. I made it through basic training, and managed to go home twice a year and not shed a tear every time I'd have to walk away from my mom & dad at the airport while they both cried. My feelings are finally coming back to me now.